Nothing Is Ever As Good As You Think It Will Be

But why should it be? You suck.

When you look back at your past you see mostly the bad decisions and sorry parts. After a certain age these mount to an almost intolerable level not just because there are so many more of them but because you realize that, with the finite amount of time you have left and your inability to do anything right, they will become the bulk of your legacy in life — to the extent that you will have any legacy in life. (Knowing that there is actually no such thing as a legacy in life and that all eventually comes to dust should, in theory, make the terrible things you’ve done and the awful amount of time you’ve wasted somehow feel less soul-crushing, but theory only counts in particle physics and lit crit.) If you started to draw up a list of your disappointments you might never be fully finished, and the idea of even ranking them seems overwhelming when you consider just how horrible all the things that have happened to and because of you really are, but that doesn’t mean that someone else can’t give it a go. How many of these disappointments are on your own personal list? Tell us on social media or whatever!